Self conversations

Now, I hope I'm not the only one who relates to inner conversations I have with myself. Who doesn't talk to themselves anyways? I asked myself if this was normal and I agree, there's nothing to it!

Anyways, I was thinking in my head and I came to the conclusion that I was sad and lonely. I know! What kind of self reflection is that? So I was quick to bring up what the word says about how STRONG God is and how He gives me joy: And I rebutted with, "I have joy, I'm just not very smiley or happy"...Hmm, okay. I'll talk about this on another blog :D

Well then, what's with this lonely talk? I couldn't figure myself out! I mean, I was thinking about what my wife would be like, how we'll connect etc., my children, inlaws, how I'd meet a "best" friend and where in the world I'd be and...then I had a reality check and canned all that mushy day dream stuff. So, I asked God. What's the deal, Daddy? Why am I lonely? He said it's probably because I haven't been spending any time with him...Ouch.
Well, I know that no amount of time with people can substitute time with the Lord, and that He's a really cool and interesting God to talk to about all issues of life. So what have I been doing neglecting such a cool guy?

What could possibly be causing this? Why don't I "feel" more into the Word and connected to the spirit?

Some of my friends are across the ocean. In England (and I wish I was there with them), others are always international now days and I can never keep up with them, yet still, some are just a few states away. Or even closer, a few miles. Yet God Himself is so close that He's literally inside me in the spirit and He has never even left! Yet, I find it easier to stay in contact with someone out of sight and out of mind than I do my dad!

I had a stern finger pointing in my mind's eye of how I could be acting so ridiculously and I let me have it! Lol, I wasn't too hard on myself. God has a way of saying something that is like a pinch on the arm or someone snapping their fingers in front of your face. No, it's more like a bucket of ice water in your face. It gets your attention.

Oh my goodness! I've been writing how many inches now down the page, and I haven't directly quoted scripture or wrote some sermon on my rarely seen blog! Wow, I had hoped to get better at this personal jibe talk, but I didn't realize I was getting this good!

That is what we call a side-paragraph: Back to all about me! I guess my point is that I encouraged myself in the Lord. I didn't let anyone know about my sadness, or express my isolation. I just listened to God, and did a little self reflecting. (And when you know what the Word says about who you are, and how mighty and wonderful and beautiful God created you, your self reflecting turns out pretty positive). And you find peace. It's simply bliss.

So, I hope you are doing wonderful, and if you don't know what God thinks about you, I'd encourage you to open the bible and take a look: Colossians 1:12 says, Giving thanks to God, which hath made us acceptable: to be partakers of the inheritance of the saints in light:

I can smile big knowing that regardless of my feelings, Christ looks at me and says I'm worth it. I'm worth His attention, I'm worth being His child. That I haven't screwed up my life. I see so much in Him that I forget to look at myself... And I love every moment I have with Jesus.