(like myself) it always surprises me when I think about how little I actually know about life.
This year in the apprenticeship at school is a little difficult. There are 1,001 things I'd rather be doing on a day to day basis 5 days a week, especially when I could get along lots better if I was working more often. Knowhutimean?
But, I'm not writing this so you can start the gossip on how hard this is on me :) I'm writing this because I hardly ever talk about myself in my blog and I want to change that. Laura is my inspiration for doing this. She can talk about the paper weight on her desk and how it made her feel and I'd be riveted by every word!
I just enjoy even reading the little things and how they impact my friend's life. I'm not saying you all have to hang on every word I post, but I at least hope I'm not boring you with these posts.
Usually, I will type about some revelation or word from God and I really enjoy organizing my thoughts that way. But I also like the impersonal anonymity given on the internet in the fact that I can type this out and not have to spend the time to find the words.
Back to the apprenticeship!!!! Everyone abandon-ship!!!! That's how I feel sometimes. If all they want to do is help me "prepare" for my next step, or for God's calling on my life, then I feel that it was a program wasted on me.
I have my next step down to a T. Work for Andrew Wommack Ministries. Tada! Step one done. Now, how to prepare for God's calling on my life... I really hope God has some ideas on this because I can do nothing in the flesh and win. I always fail.
This apprenticeship is not a waste of my time. The Lord knew that this would be a time I need before I enter into full time ministry. I know it too. This is a preparation time like none other. I have a great opportunity here and I greatly appreciate how much time people put into the program I'm in FOR ME.
But it's okay that I don't have a ministry yet. It's fine that I'm not mentoring anyone just quite. It's all right that I'm ministering to myself and edifying myself in God's word. god doesn't want me to step out onto the track just yet. I can wait. I put all my confidence in Jesus.
I have about one more term left and I don't know it all :) But I suppose I'm going to spend the rest of my life learning who Jesus Christ is. I can't get enough of him. I'm amazed of how little I am and how BIG He is. And I will never stop loving Him.
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SO SO SO GREAT. I not only love this " But, I'm not writing this so you can start the gossip on how hard this is on me :) I'm writing this because I hardly ever talk about myself in my blog and I want to change that. Laura is my inspiration for doing this. She can talk about the paper weight on her desk and how it made her feel and I'd be riveted by every word!" but I love how you shared from your heart. I pray and believe you hear and know what you are called to do in the long haul. You see the big picture! AMEN!
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