Summer times

I was prepared for missions across the world. Istanbul, Calcutta, St. Petersburg, etc. I was ready to be unleashed upon the masses. After all, I graduated. I'm a licensed minister now. What's holding me back? God was the last person on my objection list, or so I thought.

God has called me to patience this summer. No where in particular. Just patience in Colorado Springs. EEEEEEEK! This is not what I wanted. But God had been speaking to me for over a year on what to expect THIS SUMMER! haha. Shows how much I listen :)

I was saddened my friends left town and was feeling inadequate because I wasn't ministering, or in a leadership position. Plus, I realized God doesn't want me in a leadership position right now and He wants me in a relational position.

The very fact that I would feel inadequate period is means to step back and reconsider what's going on. INADEQUACY comes from a lack of knowledge of the love of God. That's what I want to talk about. The love of God.

Ministry is relationship to and with God. That's it. Simple. Relationship with God. My ministry is not where I go or who I speak to. My overflow of my relationship with God blesses others, but my ministry is purely a relationship with God.

I knew that. I know that. I knew I knew that. BUT I FORGOT! I had to be reminded of that. My Father's love trumps every situation, every circumstance, and every problem.

For this summer time I am going to be in ministry full time. Ministering to myself daily. Ministering to God daily. I feel amazed that God says I get to minister to HIM! How does that work? I don't know! But think about it... He created us because He loves us. And He wants us to love Him. When I give God love, He is ministered to. When I praise Him, take time out of my day, worship Him, I am blessing God!

If you don't see that, I won't argue with you. I love the Lord :) Besides that, the love of God is said to keep you in perfect peace. Do you believe that? The bible says it will. Do you believe that? I do.

I can't explain every question you might have. I know the word is truth, God is love, and I have Christ's righteousness. I was in fear and anxiety because I went there in my mind and allowed myself to be that way. I cannot explain the entirety of God's love and I have a horrible time explaining this. That's why I'll take the next blog to talk more about it. It'll be more illustrated and have scriptures and what not. It'll be a good summer