Full of life

There are always things swirling and twirling around in my mind. And it sure is full as of late.

But having my thoughts on the good things is extremely satisfying. Having a relationship with God gives me a purpose to express love. I don't think I'd be a very nice person if left to my own thoughts and feelings.

I think that is something we as humans have become awkward about. Sometimes, showing "affection" in a platonic way towards people can really set them off. No I'm not creeping people out or anything with awkward comments :) But I just think that we do not understand basics of who we are suppose to be.

As a christian, we should have an intimate relationship with the object of our christianity. i.e. Christ!

We may know that our relationship with him is the primary importance in life, but sometimes we wind ourselves up in knots of life and get tied up in things that become too important for us to abandon.

I'm having to "abandon" Colorado Springs in the best effort of mine to be able to go to Russia in March. It will be cheaper (i.e. free) to live with my parents than to continue living in Colorado. Yay, though! I get to go to St. Petersburg as of now and I'm loving that.

When people try to gauge your productivity in life they may consider your future goals, schooling, any interests that make you unique, etc. But my point is that being able to relate to Jesus is the first and most important priority in life. And it's one that gets overlooked too often.

I have things in common with Jesus. That's why we're friends. I like the things He likes. I enjoy showing compassion to others. I enjoy learning how God thinks: what makes him tick. I have a relationship with Him.

I find that filling myself up with Jesus fills my life up with positive experiences. I hope to be able to share effectively the ease of relationship I have with God. I want to express the pure God of the Gospel. One of love and peace. Not enmity or disappointment or anger or hate.

I know who God is and I have big shoes to fill if I'm ever going to be half as great. But, then again, I don't need to size up or compare myself to perfection. I have Christ to look at and compare him against God. He is not only my friend, but my mediator. He has made me perfect to the glory of God. I have a very good friendship.

If you don't feel like you do as well, ask God about it. If you're full of life and it's not very heartening but stressful and strifeful, bring it up in conversation with God. I know he doesn't want that for you and I know he's not the root of your distress. It's okay to trust in a good person. You won't be let down in the hands of God. I promise you he can be strength enough to get you through any storm. I've had to face some myself and He's always been there with me.

I love my foundation and nothing will shake me. I have my friend Jesus to thank for that.

I'm in no hurry

I love the fact that I've been a christian for years. But life is like my picture above. You can never be certain where you'll end up, lol. Now that bible college is over I'm glad to start paddling to the next part of my life.

Lately I've been hanging out with friends and enjoying this summer while it lasts. I can't wait to begin new things but at the same time I'm not in a hurry either. God knows the right time for every part of my life and I'm not afraid to take time to meditate on the word and create more memories with my Lord.

I might be taking the following decade and devoting it to college and the military. This is in no way a concrete or "best" thought out decision but it's on the table right now. So be praying for me as I consider things for next year and see what God would have us do together.

Understanding love is how we grow in Christ because He is the head of the body and He represents God perfectly. I want to represent Christ in everything I do. But I believe the word of God is quick and powerful and He is able to make clear to me what I should do next.

I want to use the gifts God has given me and that is why I'm considering college again. I am academic and naturally good at most subjects. I will always be a partaker of the gospel and am not afraid. Whether I'm appointed a preacher, an apostle, or a teacher, I will bring life through the gospel truth.

I just wanted to type a little bit to give you guys an update and let you know I'm doing great! I'm in no hurry, and I'm also in no hurry to waste time either. But with God's wisdom at my disposal I know I will redeem the time. God's grace is great for me! I know whatever I choose that Jesus is always there with me and that's a comfort I'll never be without.