For someone who doesn't know a lot...

(like myself) it always surprises me when I think about how little I actually know about life.

This year in the apprenticeship at school is a little difficult. There are 1,001 things I'd rather be doing on a day to day basis 5 days a week, especially when I could get along lots better if I was working more often. Knowhutimean?

But, I'm not writing this so you can start the gossip on how hard this is on me :) I'm writing this because I hardly ever talk about myself in my blog and I want to change that. Laura is my inspiration for doing this. She can talk about the paper weight on her desk and how it made her feel and I'd be riveted by every word!

I just enjoy even reading the little things and how they impact my friend's life. I'm not saying you all have to hang on every word I post, but I at least hope I'm not boring you with these posts.

Usually, I will type about some revelation or word from God and I really enjoy organizing my thoughts that way. But I also like the impersonal anonymity given on the internet in the fact that I can type this out and not have to spend the time to find the words.

Back to the apprenticeship!!!! Everyone abandon-ship!!!! That's how I feel sometimes. If all they want to do is help me "prepare" for my next step, or for God's calling on my life, then I feel that it was a program wasted on me.

I have my next step down to a T. Work for Andrew Wommack Ministries. Tada! Step one done. Now, how to prepare for God's calling on my life... I really hope God has some ideas on this because I can do nothing in the flesh and win. I always fail.

This apprenticeship is not a waste of my time. The Lord knew that this would be a time I need before I enter into full time ministry. I know it too. This is a preparation time like none other. I have a great opportunity here and I greatly appreciate how much time people put into the program I'm in FOR ME.

But it's okay that I don't have a ministry yet. It's fine that I'm not mentoring anyone just quite. It's all right that I'm ministering to myself and edifying myself in God's word. god doesn't want me to step out onto the track just yet. I can wait. I put all my confidence in Jesus.

I have about one more term left and I don't know it all :) But I suppose I'm going to spend the rest of my life learning who Jesus Christ is. I can't get enough of him. I'm amazed of how little I am and how BIG He is. And I will never stop loving Him.

My Christmas...

was awesome! I wasn't bummed about not going home, but I was bummed not seeing my parents. When I can get time off next year I plan on seeing them. Maybe summer time :)

<----See that ketchup shirt? I pretty much made that my "pajama" shirt and wore it saturday and sunday as well. I showered and stuff daily, I just wore the same clothes.

Call me weird if you like but it's okay to do that because they were "pajamas".

Anyways, back to Christmas. As you can see from this picture...I did not starve! Deserae spent the whole morning making food and preparing for me and Ken. Chris...I don't know what he did. He'll probably say, "Whatever, I helped...I put ice in the cups." That's usually the extent of his cooking prowess. :D But I thank them both so much for inviting me over.

Chris and Des are the type of friends you always wish to have, but you never knew you wanted these types of friends until you meet them. They are amazing! Thank you extra much Deserae for getting up so early and cooking lots and lots and lots of DELICIOUS food.

Chris...Thank you soooooo much for marrying the love of your life!

I spent Christmas there. Ken made the biscuits and mashed potatoes, just how I like them, I might add. I baked brownies. And they burnt...So yeah, I contributed nothing to the mix but that's what friends are for, right?

After eating, we played scene it...80's version. It was fun, even though Chris and I lost both times. I learned that I know nothing about 80's culture (except The Princess Bride) But that doesn't help when Des is faster at shouting out movies than I am. :)

Oh! And they got both Ken and I gifts. I felt really loved on that day.

Also, I felt really loved on Christmas Eve. So, I have a spare tire on my car and didn't want to drive, so I coudn't go over to the Bryant's house. I tried to phone them, and Basil to hitch a ride, but they missed my call and Basil doesn't answer his phone.

So, they call me back and go all the way across town just to pick me up and take me to their place so we can watch a movie. There was a few of us there and the girls had each decorated a stocking for us and wrote our name on it and glittered it all up! I loved it. They made a glitter-bear and put glasses on mine :D It's the little touch of detail that brings it all about.

Oh-They got me a very nice looking tie to go with my suits and I like dressing up, so there's another detail they paid attention to.

So, I had two days of fun, spent a moderate amount of time at each one, AND I got to spend lots of time secluded and to myself reading, playing games, and breaking in my converted pj's.

It's the most wonderful time of the year.