I moved from Colorado but I haven't felt settled in yet. Granted most of my stuff is still in my car and that's not helping. I feel like this is the place t be right now so everything's fine there, it's just that I was so use to living a certain way, doing a certain routine that it's still getting to me that I can't go out for coffee with a friend or drop by for a visit and some ice cream.
Even people I wouldn't ordinarily go visit I'm itching to go see. It's strange living in Arkansas. The only friends I have out here are my brother and his wife and honestly, I don't know them that well at all. I guess my mind is searching for some kind of consistency: I've heard we're creatures of habit.
The triplets are adorable and I'm loving every moment with them, even though sometimes I feel at a loss on what to do. I didn't come out here to add stress to my brother's life, you know? :)
Sometimes I wonder what God is up to: I mean in my life personally. I'm trying to go to Russia and everything seems on track there, but that's far away. I am not use to being so goal less in my immediate life. I mean, do I want to be in ministry for the near future? How could I continue about doing that? If so, where to go? Why do I want to join the military? Goodness, I don't like typing so reflectively, it just makes me think of more questions.
There are too many questions to be honest. I can search and sift them the half of them. I felt God pushing me out of the Springs for some reason though. I'm still sure I was given the motivation to leave town. Maybe that was for another's benefit and not mine, lol. I can be annoying at times! Oh my, not very positive thoughts in this post.
I'll end it saying that despite all this, I'm keeping my wits about me. I am not necessarily "looking" for an obvious "Oh, that's why I'm here! God's plan makes sense now." Because there are times when you are an impact on your surroundings and you won't know just yet how important your actions were.
So any-who, Jesus is my everything. I love serving Him my affection and dedication and zeal. I can't get enough of Him, either :) I always have more to say, I just don't like crossing that personal sharing line very often so don't get too used to it! I'll save the more for next year!!! So have a happy and merry and blessed rest of the year of 2010!
