Full of life

There are always things swirling and twirling around in my mind. And it sure is full as of late.

But having my thoughts on the good things is extremely satisfying. Having a relationship with God gives me a purpose to express love. I don't think I'd be a very nice person if left to my own thoughts and feelings.

I think that is something we as humans have become awkward about. Sometimes, showing "affection" in a platonic way towards people can really set them off. No I'm not creeping people out or anything with awkward comments :) But I just think that we do not understand basics of who we are suppose to be.

As a christian, we should have an intimate relationship with the object of our christianity. i.e. Christ!

We may know that our relationship with him is the primary importance in life, but sometimes we wind ourselves up in knots of life and get tied up in things that become too important for us to abandon.

I'm having to "abandon" Colorado Springs in the best effort of mine to be able to go to Russia in March. It will be cheaper (i.e. free) to live with my parents than to continue living in Colorado. Yay, though! I get to go to St. Petersburg as of now and I'm loving that.

When people try to gauge your productivity in life they may consider your future goals, schooling, any interests that make you unique, etc. But my point is that being able to relate to Jesus is the first and most important priority in life. And it's one that gets overlooked too often.

I have things in common with Jesus. That's why we're friends. I like the things He likes. I enjoy showing compassion to others. I enjoy learning how God thinks: what makes him tick. I have a relationship with Him.

I find that filling myself up with Jesus fills my life up with positive experiences. I hope to be able to share effectively the ease of relationship I have with God. I want to express the pure God of the Gospel. One of love and peace. Not enmity or disappointment or anger or hate.

I know who God is and I have big shoes to fill if I'm ever going to be half as great. But, then again, I don't need to size up or compare myself to perfection. I have Christ to look at and compare him against God. He is not only my friend, but my mediator. He has made me perfect to the glory of God. I have a very good friendship.

If you don't feel like you do as well, ask God about it. If you're full of life and it's not very heartening but stressful and strifeful, bring it up in conversation with God. I know he doesn't want that for you and I know he's not the root of your distress. It's okay to trust in a good person. You won't be let down in the hands of God. I promise you he can be strength enough to get you through any storm. I've had to face some myself and He's always been there with me.

I love my foundation and nothing will shake me. I have my friend Jesus to thank for that.